I didn’t want this.
All I ever wanted to do was hide but
you dragged me out into the light
and I’m left here wondering if this hell is worth it.
The pain of being seen.
You kiss my scars and for the first time
it makes me wish I never stopped with that razor.
The blade’s kisses were comfort back then,
but this is torture of the best kind
and I want it to last. You make me a person.
I thought I had bled out all my love and maybe I had
but you put something new in me,
a heart I never thought could beat so strongly
and damn is it exhilarating.
I have no borders.
There are still places I hate and you hate
them too but somehow
we’ve been made into beautiful damages.
We dance and let the bass line give us spines
as strong as lead and lose ourselves in the music of our souls
that echoes the chaos of our lives. We don’t know how
we got here but we’re chanting in a circle,
calling out our “ohs” to the heavens
with breathless wonder.
The air is ecstasy and we,
we are free.